Friday, January 29, 2010

New Begining: Day 16

Got to looking at my titles and thought that separation no longer fit the bill. I was hoping that I would never see  10 then 20 then 50 and I thought for certain that I would be back home in my warm bed lying next to a beautiful, loving wife by day 100. It didn't work out that way so here I am. Still a little bitter, still break down and cry some days...well most days...but I am getting by. I try to do my best as I always have. An update on the diet front is things are going good. I am sticking to my plan. It is hard as hell especially when you have co-workers bring in pizza, cookies, and cakes to tempt you with. I am on the Medifast plan. It is basically about 1000 calorie diet and you have one "home cooked" meal a day. The rest of the meals are pre portioned oatmeal, soups, shakes, and bars. Every morning I have to fight the small voice inside me begging me to stop and get a gravy biscuit with a side of bacon. Damn just typing that makes my mouth water. The first goal I have is not a set amount of weight. It is to wear pants again. Before all the weight gain I wore khaki pants everyday. I just like khaki. For going on two years now I have had to wear jogging pants. I know so cliche. My first goal is to put on a pair of khaki pants with some nice shoes and go out somewhere I  haven't felt comfortable going in joggers. You can't go to church in jogging pants, it's just not respectful, and I'm not just trying to get out of church. So when the khaki's come on then I have made it to my first goal. Thought since it was Friday I would post ten things that have made me happy thus far:

  1. Blogging Awards- Go Shane! It's your birthday.
  2. Coincidentally it is my birthday tomorrow!!
  3. Spending time with my boys aka the Turd Birds.
  4. Spending time with friends.
  5. Still getting overtime.
  6. Diet is going good with no major slips.
  7. Nice quiet house with warm blankets.
  8. Little more pep in my step.
  9. Green Olives
  10. My Lady Gaga cd. (guilty pleasure)


  1. Not to be all up in your business...but

    Being divorced for 3 and half years myself, I know some of what you're going through but just a small suggestion.

    Don't dwell on the divorce days, perhaps Transformation Day #11, or Me and My Boys Day #12, forming a positive attitude will help you recover some of the self you think you've lost. :)

  2. Good luck on the dieting front.. that's great..before you know it, you'll be in a khaki going out for a fancy dinner :)

  3. I like Frannie's idea of focusing on the positive for your title. :)


    Happy Birthday!!!! Hope you have a wonderful day Shane! :)

  4. @ Frannie: Excellent idea! Note the change! It feels better already, thanks for the suggestion!

    @ MOT: I hope so, and damn I'll look good too! ;-)

    @ TC: It was a great day! Had to work that night and that cut my time with JD in half but it was a great day!! Thanks!!

  5. Hi Shane, it's Secretia, my first time here, and thanks for visiting Secret Story Time.

    I want to wish you the best success in your weight loss and in your "new beginnings".

    You can make things good for yourself, I cheer you on.