Monday, December 20, 2010
This year has not been my most successful year. This year has not been my happiest year. You could say this has been the worst year of my life. In January I got divorced. After twelve years my wife left me. You can go back and read the details. I am still working through this daily. The truth is I am still very much in love with her but she has moved on..and on...and on. I lost my job in October along with the job went the insurance. Which is a big ouch. The biggest part of the year I had gout in one or both ankles. For anyone who has never had gout. It sucks. It sucks big time! Plus it hurts like a mother huncher. My wife has started dating formally. Even though I only hear about it from my sons (no prying from me) it kills me. It absolutely kills me. The biggest problem with that is that I'm not over her. I will have to work on this also. BUT....this year has not all been doom and gloom. There are some very positive things that came out of this year. I have lost nearly 200 lbs. Let me say that again... 200 lbs. That's like three supermodels. I feel the best I have felt in a long time. I get out and do more than I have in years. I watch movies at the theater now. I go to my kid's school programs. I take my boys out to eat. I take my boys to visit my friends and they love my friends!!! Plus I have friends. I never honestly knew that I had so many friends that loved and cared for me so much. I have met and maintain ties with friends that I have met on this blog. They are awesome. You know you are. I have started going to church again. I am a born again Christan. I don't preach to others. You know the shape and destination of your soul. You don't need my two cents worth. I started praying for peace and comfort I have received peace and comfort from time to time and I am thankful. Even though I do get down and out I am strong enough to pull myself back out of the muck. I have the strength to overcome anything as long as I put my heart and soul into it. Don't get me wrong I am not experiencing a bout of prison religion. I have always felt that I could live a better life. Now I am. My boys love their dad very much. I love every minute I spend with them. They are awesome to be around and I look forward to seeing them as much as I can. They love their SWEET DADDY and I love my bird turds!! 2011 may not get any better, it may be the best year of my life. Only time will tell. No longer will I look at tomorrow with my head down in a defeated manner. When I meet the future it will be eye to eye.