Wednesday, March 3, 2010

New Beginning: Day 49

There are several firsts after a divorce or separation. The first birthday, anniversary, holiday, and the first time you see your ex with someone else. I thought this day would be on further down the road but it happened and I didn't explode but it was a lot for me to process. To my ex's credit she did call and tell me that she was bringing someone to my son's practise so I wouldn't be shocked. After practise the guy came up to my truck and introduced himself and told me that he was her friend and that was it. Yeah well I've heard that before about the other feller. I told him that he didn't owe me any explanation and he said he didn't want there to be any animosity,  I'm sorry but that ship has already sailed along time ago. My ex told me they were going from the ball field to her mom's who had cooked for them. Funny she never cooked for me in the twelve years I was married to her daughter. I thought the last little bit was TMI but I think it is part of her shock and awe campaign. My oldest asked me the other day how come I wasn't dating and I told him it wouldn't be fair to the other person because I was still in love with his mom. Baseball season is upon us and Spring is near so I hope that I can keep my mind off things and not dwell on the negative. There is about a thousand things I want to do around the house and the yard needs attention bad. Plus I have yet to visit the building in the back yard so that will be an adventure unto itself. The diet is going good and I am waiting on warm weather to add walking to my daily routine. I am planning on walking in the morning with a co-worker and then in the evening with an old high school friend. I am hoping to get "high school skinny" by the end of summer. ☺ It is going to take a lot of will power and effort but I believe I can do it.


  1. It is definitely hard to come to grips with your ex dating someone else, but guess what? Once its done, it's done.. the worst is over. You already faced him, and it is behind you - it will only get better from here on.. That is one of my biggest fears, running to my ex with another girl, but I also know that no matter how much it hurts, once I hit that rock bottom spot, I will only go up...

    I am glad you are keeping with your diet regime, I am sure all the hard work will pay off and you'll be high school skinny in no time..

  2. Hi Papa Shane, I'm sorry... you're right... this one just sucks. I don't think you can do anything to prepare yourself for this kind of thing and I don't think it hurts any less after time goes by. You just have to deal with it somehow. I've had a couple of those instances where my heart sank so low I thought I was digesting it for dinner. It's an awful feeling and I think I rather get tooth pulled and go through it again. I guess I just understand you and hope it gets easier with time.

    All is better on my end. I've been a little down lately and I guess I'll write about it soon. Not only because of the Chile situation but just nothing seems to be panning out and I'm starting to wonder about everything and questioning all of my decisions. We've all been there before so no surprise there but it got to me and I'm working through it.

    Much love:)